Longest Day

Looking north from the roof

Happy summer solstice or winter solstice for friends in the Southern Hemisphere.  We're basking in clear San Francisco skies (a bit unusual for the season) for the longest day of sunlight for the year.  I'm afraid the day does feel acutely long since I've been up before first light and I doubt I will close my eyes until well after night has fallen.  I am feeling quite preoccupied.  Tomorrow morning we will meet with the surgeon and discuss the most prudent and promising ways to slice portions out of my brain for removal.  I'm not sure if I'm going to get just a detailing (biopsy) or a major remodel (debulking) but either way, we're both anxious and looking forward to meeting with the surgeon tomorrow so that we can finally have some of these questions answered.
I feel I'm back to where I was in October of 2010 except now I actually know a lot more about what I'm facing.  It is tough not let my mind be overrun.  I try not to suppress worries, fears, or concerns.  Yet at the same time, I don't allow them to take root.  Steph and I are talking about it all, what it may mean, what sort decisions we need to make and why - we're talking about things that we may never have to face so that we don't feel overwhelmed by any of it.  This isn't perfect but it helps.  Today is still a very long day.